Saturday, 2 April 2016

Her Naked Soul


Photo captured by me


Her naked soul
Her unguarded heart
Disarmed and disrobed,
Down to the core
A sacred romance
Like a wildflower,
Shallow yet fierce,
Bound yet free
She swayed to the rhythm of the winds.
Whispering secrets to the butterflies,
Eyes sparkling, soul dancing
Looking for a little flame,
Trying to find the perfect place to grow-
Her naked soul.

Sunday, 13 March 2016

Ek Yaad

Here's my first attempt at writing poetry in Urdu:



Teri muskurahat mein simat gayi duniya meri,
Aaj phir ashq bahe jo teri yaad aayi hai..

Zindagi ke samandar mein sukoon kahan,
Teri deewangi toofan ki leher bann kar aayi hai..

Main pyaasi rahi, teri ek jhalak paane ke liye,
Mere dil ke deewaro ke darmiyan ab sirf tanhayi hai..

Udna to chaha bohot magar, toot gaye par mere,
Aaj phir in parindo ko udta dekh, ghar ki yaad aayi hai..




Monday, 7 December 2015

Together, Forever, Never Apart




She sat there gazing outside the window with a distant look on her face. She was to board her flight in the next two hours. The cup of warm coffee in her hands had started to get cold, but unlike any other day, she wasn't bothered. She watched the trains go to and fro from the subway that was right across the cafe where she sat waiting for the dreaded moment. Time was tricking fast, and soon she would have to leave for the airport.

Suddenly, she feels a warm hand brush her face. She looks up and sees him, staring at her face with a gawky smile. Ah that smile! That beautiful, beautiful smile- it broke her heart into a hundred little pieces like shards of glass, for she could see the pain through his eyes.
It was all very new to her- being looked at with so much love. She knew that she'd found in him her own little happy place, a place that her heart had longed for, for a long, long time. He took her hand in his, and played with her fingers- silently watching the bustle of the city outside the window. They sat like that for a long time, his arms wrapped around hers, and her head on his shoulders. The sun was setting low behind the buildings, and the time to say goodbye was approaching quickly.

"The ride back home is going to be hard," he joked nervously.
"Think about how I'd feel sitting all alone at the airport," she murmured softly.

He turned towards her and planted a kiss on her forehead. "Listen to me now," he said, "It's going to be hard- being away from each other. But all I want you to know is that what we have is something extraordinary, and nothing can break us apart, not even the distance. Our love is strong. We both know how lucky we are to have each other in our lives. I love you, and I will miss you every day till the day I get to see you again. When I sleep, I will meet you in my dreams, and when I wake up, I will greet you in my memories. It's not going to be easy, but we'll work our way through it. And I want to do that because I want you in my life. I've never been so sure about anything else, and I want you to remember that. Always. And besides, distance means so little when someone means so much. And love has no limits; it will travel as far as you let it. So my dear girl, our journey together has just begun. Hold on tight, and enjoy the ride baby. Because we both know that no matter what, it will all be worth it."

As she embarrassingly tried to wipe away the tears from her face, he pulled her into a tight hug. She knew it then that it was this memory that she would hold on to for all the lonely nights that awaited her. She wanted to say so many things, but she knew she didn't have to. He knew. So she hugged him as tight as she could, preserving every bit of the moment in her memory.

The sun had set behind the buildings. It was time to go. Slowly, they let go of each other. She smiled at him. He kissed her softly on her lips.
With hands intertwined, they walked silently towards the car.

True, it's going to be hard. But she knew that years from now, the past will be a story- a story of long days, and lonely nights, hard work and lack of sleep. They would live each day having intimately known the pain of being apart. They would appreciate and embrace their time together, knowing how lucky they were to have made it through. And they will find solace in the promise of a future together.
Because in the end, it will be worth it. 

Tuesday, 1 December 2015

Free Bird

Varvara Stylidou, 'Refugee Boat'



Mama, I was a free bird
Frolicking across the blue sky
Eyes full of dreams
And wings ready to fly.

Mama, I was a free bird
Until the day the drones came-
And took Baba away.

They broke my wings, mama-
Tore them apart!
But mama, I don't want to die
And mama, I don't want to cry.

Mama I can't sleep at night
I miss Abdel
The sound of his scream
Still rings in my ear
And keeps me awake all night.
Mama, he was the light of your life,
The joy to my heart
I can never forget the way his pudgy hands
brushed my face ever so lightly-
And on that cold winter night
It were the same hands
That lay lifeless beside me.
Mama, why did they take him away?

Mama, what do I do?
The pain is unbearable.
I just want to sleep in your arms
And listen to your lullabies
But mama, you're no longer here
And I miss you.

Mama, the boats have arrived
They say they'll take us to safer land
Mama, I don't trust these men
But mama I don't have a choice.

Mama, all my dreams are shattered
There's no hope
No relief.
Mama, I'm lost
And I don't know if I'll ever be able to find myself again
I just want to go home
But home is a distant memory now.

Mama, I was a free bird
But the skies are grey and unwelcoming now
And I've forgotten how to fly.






Friday, 20 November 2015

Safe Haven



Leave your darkest fears behind-
Come, dear love
Let it all burst into a zillion little specks of stardust
As you press your lips against mine
Let me greet those fears
Open your heart and let me intrude.
Hold me close, keep me safe
Promise that you'll never go.
Hold me tight,
Whisper promises
Underneath the moonlight-
And in return, I shall promise
I'll always stay
Right here,
In the fortress that your arms provide. 

Thursday, 10 September 2015

Labyrinth

painting by Vincent Giarrano



I want to move on. God knows, I really do. 
But here's the catch- I'm fucking addicted to technology. 
And it's sad because inevitably, I end up seeing him everywhere
Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat- you name it.

Why do we do this to ourselves?
The moment we meet someone, requests start flying everywhere-
Hey, let's be friends on Facebook, followers on Instagram, 
Lovers on WhatsApp
And then when it all ends,
Let's haunt each other every fucking where.

What happened to them old way
Where you changed numbers and never saw each other again?
It's so hard to distract yourself when his fucking smiling face is staring back at you through the computer screen
Him posting pictures with his friends
Showing how happy he is without you
It could be pretence, or it could be real
Who knows?
It hurts you anyway.
You sit there, staring at the picture with disbelief 
Asking yourself,
Is he the same person who used to worry about your sleeping habits?
He doesn't even care if you sleep or not anymore.

It exhausts you, this endless labyrinth of technology.
You seek closure, but you end up seeing their pictures with another person instead
And then countless hours of stalking follow-
Don't even get me started on the rage of emotions that flow inside your head after that.

Ugh.
We need to stop doing this to ourselves
It's pointless. It won't change anything.
Stop wearing yourself down for the things that are not in your control
Go out, channelise your energy into better things.
Things that you love,
And that love you back in return.
Get off your phone. Shut that damn laptop.
Go live your life. 






Thursday, 16 July 2015

My Wish



What do I wish for?

I wish not for the sun or the stars or the moon
I wish not to be covered in gems that weigh us down,
Chasing trends that never last
Living a life of delusion
I wish not to be trapped in the labyrinth of life, no.

Instead-
I wish for moments that make me feel alive
I wish for nights that last forever
I wish for a warm smile on a cold blue day
I wish for a steady hand to catch me when I fall
I wish for a loving word when my tears begin to flow
I wish to love and be loved in return
I wish to fall asleep and awake, knowing that my heart is safe.

I wish for laughter
I wish for pain
I wish for sunshine
I wish for rain
I wish for madness
I wish for sanity
I wish for heights
And I wish for gravity

But most importantly,
I wish for home
And my home, I wish to build in you.